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ryanreacts) wrote2025-01-10 11:05 am
ryanreacts) wrote2025-01-10 11:05 am
Fuck
I hate myself so much.
Buying a bus ticket to Death Valley and a few dorm room essentials has depleted my funds to the point that I won’t be able to pay my phone bill. Or rather, half of it. I’m already on a Payment Arrangement.
Frankie sent me $50 the other day, but I had to spend most of it on a Lyft from Ann’s house to Bella’s house because I was way too sick to haul two suitcases & two bags on four different buses/trains for three hours. I don’t think she will send me any more.
I’m so stressed that I’ll probably have a heart attack before I even get on the bus.
I am so tired of being so stressed.
I really wish I had died instead of Dad.
Buying a bus ticket to Death Valley and a few dorm room essentials has depleted my funds to the point that I won’t be able to pay my phone bill. Or rather, half of it. I’m already on a Payment Arrangement.
Frankie sent me $50 the other day, but I had to spend most of it on a Lyft from Ann’s house to Bella’s house because I was way too sick to haul two suitcases & two bags on four different buses/trains for three hours. I don’t think she will send me any more.
I’m so stressed that I’ll probably have a heart attack before I even get on the bus.
I am so tired of being so stressed.
I really wish I had died instead of Dad.